Confused

I'm having a tough time sleeping right now. I noticed this evening that a gentleman that I really like and have been spending a great deal of time with has changed his online dating profile to say that his perfect match is someone who has done things that he and I have done over the course of the past 3 weeks. He mentioned to me that he needs to see others too, not ready to commit due to the newness of his situation. Which, I understand to a point. But our times together are very special...at least they seem to be mutually so and then to see that he's changed his stuff to see if there's someone else out there who wants to do the same stuff w/ him...I don't know. I am confused. Even when I was newly divorced, when I found someone that I really liked, I focused on that person alone and we had a great 9 months together. It didn't last but it was a long distance deal that I think wore on us both. Back to the current guy though...he even changed his "my date" info to having a weighty income and to someone having no kids. He also put that "his place" was living alone. All of this adds to my confusion. I should probably just let it go, but I don't know. I don't know.

Good morning

Well, so far, it's been a fabulous morning. Got a visit from a friend this morning that really made my day. I can now go out and face the world! :) I have some things planned and hope to get them all accomplished. The first of which is reading the paper. I LOVE my Saturday paper and coffee; but my visitor this morning was VERY worth getting things started a little late!!! Not much to say yet this early in the morning. I just hope that I am able to see the beauty in the things that I come across each day instead of the human error that is so much more prevalent in our minds. There is God-given beauty in everything around us but it seems that we so easily overlook it and focus on the imperfections. I don't want to live my life that way. I'd rather see the beauty in a rose than curse the thorn that poked my finger. So, with that, I am off to read the paper and get my day going. May anyone reading this see the beauty in the small things...

Random thoughts

Okay, so I really am diggin' this blog site. What fun! Well, here I sit...the boys on their way to my mom and dads with them; a special guy getting ready to spend the night at work; and my two cats, finally getting some chill time. A work out is in my very near future. I am disgusted w/ how much weight I've allowed myself to put on and I am determined to get it off. Having said that, I am so glad the gym is open late. I dislike going when there are a ton of people. Not sure what tomorrow will bring but each new day is a gift from God and I choose to embrace it and try to follow His lead. He's blessed me BEYOND measure and I am excited to see what He has for my and the boys' futures. Having kids really puts things into perspective. 'Things' just aren't important. I want to be the best example to them and to their friends that I can be. I am human and won't be perfect this side of heaven; but I strive to at least show them that life is good and should be lived to the fullest daily. We all have a Divine appointment and we don't know when ours is so we need to spend each minute making good decisions, with people we love, letting people we love KNOW we love them, letting people we don't know that GOD loves them, and hope that our unconcious behavior backs up our words...actions REALLY ARE louder than words.
To anyone reading this.....be blessed!!!

I WANT A GUY...
~who would move the hair away from my eyes and then kiss me.
~who would hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous.
~Someone who would sing to me at random moments. Who would let me sleep on their chest.
~A boy who would get mad at someone if they called me ugly or was mean to me.
~I want someone who would call me 3 times a day if he went away.
~Someone who would let me gossip to him and would just smile and agree with everything I said.
~He would throw stuffed animals at me when I acted dumb and then kiss me a million times.
~Someone who would make fun of me just to make me laugh.
~He would take me to the park and put his hands around my waist and give me big bear hugs all the time.
~He would tell all his friends about me and smile when he did it.
~And we'd make out in the pouring rain.
~He would never be afraid to say "I love you" in front of his friends, and we'd argue about silly things then make up.
~I want a boy that would kiss me at midnight on New Years and count stars with me.
~Who would stay home with me on a Friday night just to help me make dinner and watch movies together under the same blanket.
~Someone who would tell me I'm beautiful but not too often; who would make me laugh like noone else could.
~But mostly, I want someone who would be my best friend and would never break my heart.....
....Author Unknown....